It turns out that when you make a baby from scratch with SCIENCE!, your whole life become seriously focused around your cycle. In fact, there are times when I feel like my cycle is more important than me. Like, I am just some vessel in which my cycle resides. Does that sound crazy? Because I think it is crazy, but that’s how it is. This whole process is measured out and dictated by your cycle. Everything you do is based on what day of your cycle you are on. After all the blood being drawn and all the tests run and the consultation, I was suddenly left with nothing to do except count down the days of my last cycle so I could make a phone call to start Operation Make a Baby from Scratch.
It goes something like this:
Day 1: call your infertility nurse to tell her you have started your period. She in turn calls in your prescription for the baby making drug.(Or if you’re me, you start on a Saturday night and have to wait until Monday, aka Day 3, to call.)
Day 3 – 7: take 1 baby making pill.
Day 9 – 13: We do it like they do on the discovery channel. (Or just regular style. 10 points if you know which song lyric that is. 15 if you know the name of the song and the artist. 20 points if you just started singing it. 30 if you started singing it AND doing the dance. -5 if you had to google it first.)
Day 21: I go in for, guess what? More blood work. I think this blood is to check to make sure everything is going to plan. I’m not really sure, so I’ll go and find out and then let you know. Sound good?
I’ll be honest. I had a moment of sheer, blinding panic about this whole thing last night. I mean, really. A baby? Am I fucking nuts? No more sleeping in on the weekends, or ever sleeping again. Dirty diapers. Saggy tits. Potty training. I was ready to back pedal and be all like, “Baby? What baby? We’re not making a baby. Whatchu talkin’ ’bout, Willis?”
And then I thought about B and how much I love him. And how I want to have this experience with him and create with him in a way that none of my other crafts will ever be able to accomplish. I want to give BAD Boy the sibling he wants. I want to be a little selfish and have a legacy. Is it selfish to have a baby? In some ways, I think so. And in other ways, it’s a very selfless act, too. But I do know that deep down, no matter how scared or overwhelmed I get about and through this whole process, I really do want this. (And I really am more than just a vessel for my cycle. I think.)
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I never had those wishes/wants, but I’m weird in lots of other ways too.
Best of luck to ya!
Grace; you are not selfish to have a child. I have three, and it would take a whole day of typing to scratch the surface of telling you about them, their lives, and how they are going to contribute to the world and mankind. Their contributions will probably be modest like mine, but they each have already had a positive effect on hundreds of people around them. You aren’t just having a child. You are committing to raise that child to adulthood and bring them up to make the world better for themselves and others. You commit to teaching them to love and care for their fellow man, to give and delight, to make a real difference.
PS – Your big tits were gonna sag no matter what you did.
The Bad Touch by the Bloodhound Gang! Points for me!
And you’re going to be a fantastic mom. No doubt about that.
Just think, half the fear is the hormones they’ve got you on.
I understand totally. Except for the extra hormone thing.
You and me baby ain’t nothin but mammals!
Hang in there – it’s got to be worth it, otherwise there wouldn’t be so many kids around, right?
Ah crap. ESC beat me to it. Yes, I’m singing the song and thanks to you, I’ll probably have this earworm for the next 24 hours. lol
And Grace? You have nothing to worry about. You’re already excellent with the BAD Boy and between him and B, you’ll have lots of help. And you know we’re all baby “friendly” at knit night. We’ll spoil it rotten and send it home. heehee
And every time you need a cocktail, just let me know and I’ll have one for you. I’m such a giver.
Day 21 b/w is to check progesterone. If it’s above 10, you ovulated. Gotta have the prog to O, and also kick-start all the other baby nutrients. You too can know way too much about all this if you join me on the babycenter.com community. It’s like crack.
Best of luck, darlin.